Eeep, sorry for the long time no post thing! I have been swallowed alive first by deciding where we're moving and then by actual moving information. Yes, it is still 3 and 1/2 months away but what can I say? After so long with nothing to focus on or plan (and I am a champion planner) it's awesome to have something to direct my energy to. Does that mean I know where we're going? Yep, I do...
August 1st I will be moving to North Carolina!
Besides the year I lived in Scotland I have been a California girl my whole life. I went 10 hours away from home for college but I was still in the state. So it's scary to think about leaving friends and family and the life we've built here but this will be good I think. We will be throwing all our belongings in a moving van, loading up the car, and driving ourselves and the cats almost 3,000 miles. I'm already a little scared thinking about 5 days in a car with drive-through as our only option since it will be the middle of summer and we can't leave the cats but I'm trying not to think about that. Luckily there are so many other things to think about it's not too hard so far.
I have multiple google documents already with moving company info, lists of when things need to get done, and links to helpful sites. I'll be job hunting and apartment searching as it gets closer. So all in all it's exciting. I'm worried and happy and just overwhelmed all at once. Guess that describes a lot of life, huh?
Anyhow, food's been okay. I've actually been having some binge/emotional eating issues, particularly after dinner but hopefully having some more information about this moving thing will help since that was a huge stress for me. Hair pulling has been meh. Not so good. Sigh. Need to focus on that more.
A couple other random things:
My male coworker, last week. "If I got fat that would ruin my life. It would be the worst thing." Just lovely.
But I did have a nice conversation with a friend yesterday. She mentioned something about how I was way too skinny in an old picture. I agreed and said, "That's what happens when you only eat 500 calories a day." She frowned and asked if that was on purpose, saying "Some days I think my calorie intake doesn't get much higher than that but it's because I just find it annoying to cook and eating is boring." I explained to her at that point in my life I was convinced and afraid if I ate one bite over 500 calories that I would get fat. And not only was fat bad but that would also mean I wasn't perfect and I would ruin my life and no none would ever love me and the world would end. So yes, it was "on purpose", I guess.
Honestly, I don't think she has a very good grasp of calories and I'm pretty sure she never eats that little but some people are just very nonchalant about food and eating. I used to wish I was that way but not only can I not afford to be for my health but I'm also glad I'm not now. This works for my friend but I like enjoying food. (Well, most days at least.) I like savoring that first delicious bite of a really good dessert. I like that I like to cook and am slowly getting better at it. I like enjoying a yummy meal out with friends. I don't hate food and now, if someone offered me a pill for all my daily nutrition, meaning I'd never have to eat again, I don't think I'd take it.
Now that is progress.